Thursday, February 13, 2014

Choice

People truly are beautiful in their flaws and unique imperfections. Millions of complex emotions and thoughts. Every person you meet is capable of anything. Every one of them has the capacity for unfathomable evil and fearless hope.

Every human being strives, fears, aspires, perspires, cries and loves.

There is no greater work of art, or endless mystery than every single person you meet every day. They should be treated with respect, kindness, patience and most of all love.

The truth is... there are a million reasons to be pessimistic, or negative. So many excuses to justify protecting yourself emotionally, or pushing people away so you can't get hurt.

Choice is what it is all about. The choice to leave each person better than when you found them. The choice to accentuate the positive, instead of perpetuate the negative. The choice to leave a legacy and be remembered with love and grace for the kindness and faith you have shown others. Others who maybe just needed a little of that faith or kindness to have the courage to become the best version of themselves they can be.

My confession is that I am terrified. Constantly afraid that I am not good enough, strong enough, or smart enough. I am to afraid of taking chances because safely having what I already have, is often easier than risking it all to get something better. I have only one real wish for myself. That when I am gone, I will be remembered for my kindness, for my willingness to help those around me. Not for what I could not accomplish or the mistakes I have made.

I am constantly in awe of the enormity of the possibilities in the people around me. How everything they do is fueled by more than one personal experience, more than one emotion. I envy people their mysteries and infinite possibilities, and just want to help each of them unlock that potential, solve that mystery that is themselves.


The hope being that in the process I will gain wisdom and understanding into the mystery that is me.